things I'm trying to remember

When you apply to a school, you hold back. You save the best for when you're in school.

When you work in a nonprofit for a long time, you do your best job despite how boring it can be and how much you hate nonprofits. You don't realize how strong and how good you are growing until things all of a sudden stop being boring.

When you relive painful memories and shame and embarrassment, you are not doubting yourself. You are reminding yourself where you've come from.